Walk Down Memory Lane

I've seen this around a bit, and I loved the idea so here goes.

Here are the instructions:

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. (It can be Me or Jake or both... Yeah I am dumb and didn't notice this sooner...) It doesn't matter if you knew me/us a little or a lot; anything you remember.

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's fun to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.

So Excited!

I was looking back at my recent posts and realized that I complain too much. Things are really going great! I just want to take a minute and highlight the great things that are happening.

We are having a baby, a boy, in 3 months!!! Its amazing, he is doing great, he's growing and moving around which is an awesome feeling. (Some times like a roller coaster) But knowing that my little one is in my belly growing strong and so active is such a great thing. I feel so blessed to have the opportunity to experience it. We went and registered at Babies-R-Us a couple weeks ago and it is so fun, all of the little things and cute stuff. It really made things more real, and put a timeline really into place. I can't wait until our little boy gets here and we get to meet him face to face. It will be the most amazing event ever.

My family is so supportive. Everyone has offered to help with Nathan after he gets here, its so good to know that I have loved ones around me close enough to me that I can depend on them when life gets crazy or when I will need a baby sitter for any reason. To have the support of people I trust and know will love my child as much as I do is such a blessing and a burden lifted from my mind. I mean I already have a babysitter lined up so I can go see Twilight when it comes out on December 12th(Thanks Janet!), I mean that is love!

I have a really good job, I enjoy so much getting to help people and to work with fun people and especially the 5 minute drive to work. Its great not to have to fill up my tank every couple days. Plus the willingness to work around my schedule and energy level is so nice. Being able to switch from 4 - 10's to 5 - 8's now is so nice, I don't come home totally exhausted. I love it. The fact that they are going to try to figure out the best schedule for me instead of me trying to work into their schedule is a huge blessing also.

I am also so very very very lucky to have Jake for my husband. He is so great and so loving and supportive of everything. He does the dishes and laundry and cooks and does all the things that I ask him to do, and he doesn't complain or get upset about doing them. I love him so much more each day for being there for me. He's going to be the best daddy.

I am so blessed in all areas of my life and really know that my Father in Heaven loves me and has a plan for me and I know that he will support me through all things, easy or hard. They are possible because of his plan.

Its hard to plan the unplannable.

So you all know I am a planner, I like to make plans for everything, even to make plans... I am finding it very difficult to plan for after Nathan arrives though. Even for before he gets here really. Everyone asks what my plan is for after and when I will go back to work and how long I get off and yada yada.

My most frustrated and honest answer is that I have no clue... I know I have to go back to work, probably 6 weeks after he's born. Which is like the second week of December. I know I will have to work at least 26 hours a week for insurance, but more for some financial stability... I know that I don't want to. I am really trying to think of a way to cut back to about 30-36 hours a week, I want to be home with my baby to raise him and take care of him.

My work asked me the other day what my plan was and I told them about the plan Jake and I had discussed, for him to work 4-8 m-f + Saturday's and me to work 9-4 m-f and him to go to school after that at night. They aren't sure if that will work or not. I am not sure either. I can't decide if it would be better to be gone for a shorter amount of time everyday or work like 3 days a week for 12 hours a day. What do you think? And if I am to work the 3 12's how would that work in with Jake's schedule. I just don't know what to do.

It seems so impossible to plan because Jake will be between semester's when I go back, and won't be able to even register for school until like November or something. So I don't know what his school schedule will be. And if he were to find some amazing job that pays well and has insurance and could work easily with school that would be amazing. Its just so hard to figure out a plan when there are so many unknowns.

My only plan as of now is to try to stay healthy, keep my back in shape, and work as long as I can before the baby comes so that I don't loose out on any time after he's here.

Pregnancy = brain dead.

I so was excited this morning when I was driving to work, I kept reminding myself not to forget to call and wish my dad a happy birthday...

I did...

He laughed...

His birthday is tomorrow...

A.C. repairs and a new outlook

Well its once again been a really long time since I updated my blog. Now that I work at Smith's I don't have time to blog like I used to.

So our air conditioner wasn't working like all summer it wouldn't get below 77 in the basement and it was usually between 81 and 83 most of the time. We had to go upstairs to get cool. So after about a month of being hot and uncomfortable we finally went out and got ceiling fans to put up in the basement. We got one installed and it works great! Thanks Tim and Jake for doing it! Then Jake's parents decided to call some one to come look at it finally. There was a loose connection... So the unit that was supposed to be cooling the main floor and basement hadn't even been working for who knows how long. So they fixed it and its back to being nice and cool down here. Sometimes its even cold! We are going to return the other fans or maybe sell them to a friend if they are what she's looking for. I am so glad its fixed. I was miserable in the heat.

Pregnancy update. Things are good we are at 24 weeks now and everything is good. I am a mess though, I spill on everything I wear, drop things constantly and get my words all mixed up... (some of that isn't new, just more severe) Also my back is being stupid. I am doing physical therapy for it but have been grounded from dishes and much laundry. Its really frustrating to me because Jake is so busy with school its hard for him to get everything done. And I feel bad that he has to do it. I am so grateful for him though because he does it without complaint and is trying to keep on top of it so I don't get even more frustrated. Its really hard for me to slow down, I shouldn't pick up my nieces and nephew, I should do any kind of bending and twisting or lifting at work and I need to be super careful because I am already showing signs of carpel tunnel wish is made worse with pregnancy. I am trying to do all the stretches and limit myself like the physical therapist has told me I need to. I just feel like a big lazy bum though because I want to do those things and be helpful and active. I never thought I would miss doing the dishes or laundry or cleaning... But I do.

Jake is really worried that it will get worse and I will have to stop working and what that might do to us financially and everything. I am worried but try not to think about it. Its too scary to ponder at this point.

Luckily my work is awesome and considerate. I know I could cut back hours or work short days or even split shifts if I needed to to make it work. I am so lucky to work where I do and with the people I do.

I am also so blessed to live where I do, Jake's parents are amazing and so generous to us. They are so willing and ever ready to help us with whatever our needs are and it is so kind of them to let us live with them for an unknown amount of time.

I can't believe how much love we have from both sides of our family. I don't know many people who have as awesome of parents as I do and such great in-laws as me. Usually its one or the other. I got both!!! I am the luckiest.

Tomorrow is my dad's 60th birthday, I can't believe it, he is still so young and can do so much more than I can. No one would believe that he is 60. He is an amazing example to me of love and hard work. He is always doing more than anyone knows to support his family spiritually and temporally. I hope I can be as good of an example as he is.

I can't say all these nice things without mentioning my mom. She is my rock and my guide. She just changed jobs so that when our baby is born she will be available to help us with him. This is a gift I will never be able to repay. Without her I don't know what we would do, she will make it possible for Jake to continue on with his education and for me to be able to keep my job (and our insurance).

Like I said I am the most blessed person to have such great family here for me to support, love and guide me through all my struggles.